....POWER

Gawwwwwnnnn

Ramen noodles in my system. Feeling relaxed on this sunday evening. Been out and about SO much the past few days.. Late night trips, early morning naps. Quite fun though.. Really fun.. Today, i've decided to stay home and just chill.

Award show.. Award show.. BET award show. Today @ 8. I guess i'll watch it.. Only because they're saying Drake & Kanye are going to be there. I'm expecting something CRAZY to happen. Last year was dope, very Mike Jack-ish. This year - lets see if they can get back to the norm..

Oh but yeah, Kanye was SUPPOSED to be there last year but due to the change in the theme of the award show his performance probably got cancled and replaced by more of a michael jackson tribute special performance or something.

My nails are kinda long.. but my nails are very clean. ha, im chill on this. no clippin for me. dont you hate when your nails get so long and dirty and you dont have a nail clipper or whatever? that makes me mad. hasnt happened in a while, ive been keeping mine pretty clean.. both my toe nails and finger nails.

(why are you telling us th-) SHUT UP.. thank you.

Record deals. Record deals. Record deals. Record deals. Record deals. No record deal. Ahaha, Yall thought i blew up or something? suicide bomber flooowwww. *nose dive into a pit of fire*


WHAT THE ?! thats it for now. next post will be themed.. probably about the stars.. life.. idk.. what yall wanna hear? ...or read.. aha.. btw, wrote so many new tracks. ima record them soon.. be on the lookout.... or just wear a target on your head so i know what to shoot for. feel me? gawwwwnn.

= = = = = Graphik

Uhm ...

Found my camera cable once again... *sigh* my cousin always hides it from me. why? does she not know im trying to be an internet celebrity?

LOL, all jokes. but yeah... lets hope i can film some new stuff and upload it..?! I still want a new camera though, this ones just... broken and trashy. it'll do.. for now.. until i get my money right.. *kanye moment* ..... so yeah. that is all, blogger. that is all.


- Graphik

Favorite Songs Right Now..

Ode To Raymond

Spending the day being the father of a stuffed penguin named Raymond.
He really is my son, though. We've gotten really close.. I'm happy.

So, my father isnt in my life. As many of you know ... so what?
Doesn't mean i can't/won't be in this penguins life.
we BOTH miss his mother ... like always ... we can relate.

I honestly feel as though he speaks to me. When theres no one to listen,
when theres no one to get an opinion from, hes there. Just relaxing. No worries.
Always smiling. Hes fresh too.. From his red shirt to his tan jacket.
I value his presence. Him being here makes me happy.

He has a place in my heart now. He'll live longer than me too, Hopefully he'll pass on my legacy
and my ideals in life. I know he wants to.. We're both unsure if he will though.
Hes sitting by the window, staring out at the sun.. I told him not to tan, but he doesnt listen.
Haha. But its fine.. Hes my little man.. well, my little penguin.. And i love him.

Btw, hes really into Kanye West. I don't think he likes Charles Hamilton though.. Mehh.. Just like his mom. Haha, okay. Done blogging. Gonna spend more time with him. I'm out...?! yeah.

= Graphik

(btw, he chose the color)

Treat Her Like A Ladyyy

Hard to find things to blog / tweet about anymore.
I've been slacking in making my songs,
and lately i just dont feel like blogging.

Okay, so, appearantly my girl would rather
read my blog than ask me directly..? ehh, whatever.
Hi Baby.

'Hows the music, Graphik?!' --- RE-READ my blog ^

Hahah. I love talking to myself. Notice that?
Okay. Its hot in this room. Even the slightest
movement of my hands are causing my entire body
to sweat. Therefore, im cutting this post short.
I'll post more though.. Yall know i'll post more..

(btw, thats the title bcuz im listening to that song right now.)

Songs 2 Sample..

Loop, add some snares, some bass...

= Graphik

Transformation / Mephiles

@ Times, i feel this way ...

The Hedgehog Returns.

This needs to happen now. Been dying for some new music, as always. Reintroducing the old sound of Charles Hamilton will take a slow process though. The feeling when a mixtape drop is the equivalent to how children feel on christmas morning. Now, with this gift, fans could either rip off the wrapping paper with hopes of satisfactory - but that would only make room for dissapointment if this were to not fit your brand of Charles. Remember, he IS bringing back the 'dirty leather wallet' sound. You could also be one of the fans who slowly unravel it, appreciating each taped corner with mild enthusiasm towards being satisfied.. This way, when the project DOES blow your mind, its a better feeling than just assuming it will blow your mind. Weird message, i know, but sometimes if you keep a horrible attitude about something you KNOW will be good, the feeling you get when experiencing this will grow. This is PROBABLY the mindset of haters. They hate on something, hear it, but sadly they dont revert back to being fans. Traditional haters for ya, LOL. Uhhm. That is all. For now.

(side note: charles hamilton should read my blog ...)

- Grapherrr -

[btw check out his blog too http://www.segahamilton.blogspot.com/]

Divine Overthinking.

#BackOnMyBlogShit

Hahahaa. I miss blogging from the heart. It felt good. Rather than post pictures and videos, I can just chill and type up looong storys of advice and such while taking breaks and listening to CH & Kanye LOL.

..Or shall i blog about my musical career? (what career, nigga? lolll)
Oh RIGHT! hahaha.

ok. *serious face* ...

So many people have told me to write a project/mixtape for a nice mid summer release.. mid summer? i haven't started this project, so how could i possibly get it done mid summer? (just work OHDEE, nigga) - i kind of have a seperate life from music as well..? LOL and if i rushed it, this project would be very very lacking in substance. To write an actual project i'd need to get in the mind state of someone who is willing and devoted. I have yet to get into this mind state, although i always have music on the brain.

I think ima 'fix' up this blog.. Not fix, it doesn't need fixing.. It needs to be tuned. I think ima 'tune' up this blog.. Not tune, it doesn't need tuning.. I think ima 'change' up this blog.. Not change, it doesn't need changing.. etc...

*nods head to 124th and broadway* ... Am i losing my mind to this music? feels like im never going to be smart again. *nodding turns into a slow head bow..*

Mann, its been hot lately. Not just because its summer. Its just been HOT! ...why though?

Also, something else thats been on my mind, WHY do rappers get the LOUDEST mixtape hosters to host their damn mixtapes? Like.. ok.. im feeling this track... *nodding head to it* then all of a sudden... "DJ BLAHBLAHHHH ON THE 1'S AND 2'S, GREATEST EVERRR, *LOUD RECORD SPINS, MORE YELLING, STARTING THE TRACK OVER LIKE 5 TIMES AT THE WORST PART OF IT*" .... *nodding turns into giving my laptop a middle finger* WTF is this? ...Like jeez, be independent. I doubt those mixtape hosters even get respected for what they do. What DO they do?

Produce? No.
Help write tracks? No.
Spread the word? No. well.. sometimes. For the most part, FXCK NO.

i-n-d-e-p-e-n-d-e-n-t. which brings me back to the topic.. uhh.. (there was no topic. quit sniffing those white lines)  .... < -- that nigga is ANNOYING! ok uhm. if i ever put out a mixtape it would NOT be a traditional mixtape. not the average 'hottest spitter on the planet' type. it would be more of a ... 'look deeper into the crystal ball of lies, because theres truth in this.. the truth is in each track'.... feel me? every track would carry the same message throughout. there wont be one random ass song with a catchy beat talking about seeing a girl in some random club and how i was starstruck, then go into some song about me being the hottest in the streets saying i have 'mad bitches' or something.. (especially when thats not true, mr. whipped lookin ass) <-- CHILLLLL.


anyway, a mixtape of mine would be more simple yet complex but definitley unique in its own. and i'd have to do alot of deeeeep thinking about it anyway..


Is this the most i've ever wrote? i doubt it.. naww i don't think so. but if so, what a bummer. i should write more. or type*, sorry, lets be realistic here hahaha. OKAY, KIDDOS. i'll leave you with this..

"                      " (but theres nothing in the quotes, idiot) ...i know.

"Love of my life on second and then vanishhh.."

illuminatiiiii

"I'm a monster, niggas think i got thriller in me"..

Let me be clear. Everyone knows Charles Hamilton is one of my favorite artists...

No, we don't know each other personally.
No, i don't get paid by him to promote his stuff.
No, we have no secret collab coming out.
Yes, he's acknowledged my work ONCE but nothing too serious.

Okay? Now, back to enjoying the tracks..

Seems Like My Kind Of People..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEEZY

i might not be as G.O.O.D. as you,
but no harsh feelings, eh? haha..

Happy Birthday.

Back 2 The Ramen

Mmm.. Yup.

Part 2 of the SOULventures..

Feel the melody and the soothing sounds of my spirit,
Hand over your heart so you can react to how you feelin,
But reacting is only an active part of the struggle.
Awake your inner dormant self thats been wrapped inside the bundle
of what you try to conceal, this reality isn't real.
shake hands with the devil as you realize you've made a deal
trying to revive your past, future, and present
but you finally figured out that your moon is a cresent;
which means thats its waning, which means that im gaining,
your sense of respect.. don't fear my intellect..

*BLACKED*...

- - - -  Graphik

Charles Has Some Competition..

Lonely days on facebook, giving my name a bad look.
Fighting off the demons from whom i've had my heart took.
Such trivial ways to get trivial plays on such a trivial day.
Better watch what you say, i'm quick to delay.
but i'm slow to react; and it shows on the track.
see me in person and find that an identity is what i lack.
got the nerve to give back? nope, naw, never.
feed your body to the slaughterhouse cuz kid i will sever.
whatever, this bed is too comfy for me.
quite possibly the reason why i haven't been traveling, please
understand that i am at ease but constant vents help me out..
now read this back from the top and feel what im talking about.

- Captain Graphk

Music is such an art. Appreciate it.

...That is all.
*Goes back to writing some hot shxt*

#TruthBeTold

I'm just another factor in this worlds big equation.
With that being said, please reguard your own feelings for me.
Sadly, my mind has been racing. Overthinking used to be pleasant.
Not anymore. Congering ideas too fast for my brain to handle.
Don't mind me, im awkwardly venting.
I'm also contradicting myself...
Don't mind me..

- Capt. Graphik ...

Untitled 2

venting venting venting.
can you hear me?
do you see me?
why can't you feel me?
why don't you feel me?
just feel me...

this isn't living.
this isn't life.
living this way..
its a tragic suicide..

suicide is nothing.
suicide is selfish.
suicide is everything.
suicide is unethical.
suicide is ending.
but there is no end for me..

why so trivial?
why so comical?
why so thought provoking?
why so dull?
why so boring?
why so nice?
why so generous?
why so ....

back to basics,
back to this late shit,
back to the mazes,
back to the basics..

everything ends now.
prepare to meet your doom.

"my end is nowhere near,
yall hear me loud & clear..."

hit the restart button..
hit the restart, quick..
do it.. now..


- Graphik

Untitled 1

This is far too much.
I can't stand this feeling.
Relentlessly, I'm foolish.

"Quit. Life."

Leaving Life? ...
How can i manage that?

Find The Zone...

Nigga, you're wylin.


- Captain Graphik ..

LOL @

CutYouLoose...

'Remember my legacy as i let this beat roar..'

Stories that bothered/inspired/had me thinking this week..

http://www.yazmar.com/2010/05/28/smoking-2-year-old-baby-in-indonesia-video/

http://www.makli.com/the-prom-dress-that-got-this-girl-suspended-0041947/

http://www.wkrg.com/gulf_oil_spill/spill_cam/

http://movies.yahoo.com/photos/celebrities/gallery/2646/new-transformers-3-star-rosie-huntingtonwhiteley/fp#photo0

http://www.billboard.com/news/drake-visits-lil-wayne-hosts-album-listening-1004095398.story



- Grizzy (LOL)

LIFE

Learning more and more everyday to just LIVE it.

"Don't Worry, Be Happy."

Enjoy Yourself..

.....

Conversations with myself while listening to the leaked version of Drakes album "Thank Me Later" ... Super awkward within myself. I'm deadass like 'Damn, i'm such an on and off drake fan. But i'm feeling this for the most part. Why though? Whats different?' asking myself this OUT LOUD.. No ones around so its chill.. It's quiet too..

Milk & Cookies

You can be my starchaser tonight..

ah, sorry. stuck in my head. (starchasers - charles hamilton) such a blah of a day for me. sometimes i feel like i make my days so horrible/lonely to benefit myself.. but hows is that helping? being lonely shapes character, my character is forever engraved already - why stay lonely? i bet this has something to do with my comfort zone.. im not sure, being around too many people just doesnt feel right to me.. especially when you're around those 'fake' friends. just you in a room filled with fake friends - that can drive a person to suicide on some real shxt. smallest thing to trigger your uncomfortable attitude and just go off on people.. then they look at YOU like you're the fake. thats how life is sometimes. well.. at least my life. but i surround myself with positive people anyway. life used to give me the runaround a WHILE back, i stopped pacing in that division and started my own lane to just coast in. if you're going through similar things, a similar problem, idk, just anything similar.. take my message and feel my words. thats honestly why i blog (for the most part) .. for people to nod their heads and go 'oh shit, he goes through that? well i go through this and this way of thinking could help me..' or just something like that. i wanna HELP people, not boast my own personality over a crappy ass blog site. #justsaying.. never try and say im not humble.

sidenote; more people should cosign this blog... #justsaying